WARNING: LONG RAMBLING DECISION MAKING POST AHEAD...hit the back button if you're easily bored.
It snowed today. I went on Hood's bus trip to Tyson's corner and bought long-sleeved shirts, flannel pj pants, a cardigan, a super soft pink scarf, and 2 zip up hoodies. I am all set for the cold weather, although I do need some more long sleeved shirts. It was a fun time...I got my picture taken with Taylor Lautner, and got his Rolling Stone cover-poster. See, dreams do come true ;)
Anyway, I didn't start to post here to give you a rundown of my day, although thats the point of a journal I guess, but thats beside the point. I am rambling here today because I need help. I am the worst decision maker in the world, and I just need to write this all out. Sort of a long winded pro-con list.
My boss, tPatty, the editor of DT (my current place of internshipness) called me into her office last Friday to speak to me about "a project." My first thought was in the ballpark of oh-she-hates-my-last-assignment-and-shes-going-to-pull-it but this was not the case. She actually offered me a job. For winter break. As a paid internship. Taking over as the assignment editor of the magazine. THE ASSIGNMENT EDITOR. You see, the assignment editor (my other boss and the one I work with most of the time) put in her two weeks notice. Her last day will be next Friday, which was supposed to be my last day, as well. So, I would work over winter break, part time (about 25 hours a week) and get paid $15 an hour. I would stay here at the apartment for the entire break, except Christmas week and if I can manage to sneak home for a weekend here and there. I would be here by myself, except for a few people who I don't really hang out with anymore...but I would live alone and be alone most of the time.
I know I know I know. It's $15 an hour and its good for my resume. I mean, I'm already working there, so it wouldnt add all that much to my resume...but still. And its $15 an hour, which is way more than I've ever made anywhere else.
Are you ready for the "but," because here it comes. I have really been looking forward to this break. Having this internship has been great in the experience department, but the drive to and from, rush hour both ways, while juggling classes on my "off days" has really thrown me off. I can't remember the last time I got more than 5 hours of sleep during weeknights. I miss my bed and my cat, my family and my friends. Especially my cat...and my friends. This break was going to be my catch up time, my refresher, my primer for my last semester of college. I was going to see my friends and put up a christmas tree and go christmas shopping. I think about staying, and then I think about Holly and Dori and Jackie and Heather and all the time with them that I'm going to miss. I don't know what the future will bring, and where I'm going to be. This may be one of the last times I live at home for any length of time.
Also, I will only have 2 days to train for this job. That scares me to death. I will handle billing, online content, contracting writers and photographers, editing and formatting copy, not to mention writing. I only know how to do half of these things as an intern.
But it's $15 an hour. And its essentially an editor's position. Just so you know, I won't be hired at this magazine when I graduate, they can't hire any extras til 2011, and the only reason they're hiring now is because the assignment editor left. I know that it would be an amazing experience, scary, but good for me. But I don't know if I can handle the lonliness, sacrificing my break and time with the people I love, and having to make that damn drive for 6 extra weeks. I just dont know what to do.
A real pro/con list would probably be beneficial.
Anyway, if you made it this far, I congratulate you. If you have any advice for me, feel free to give it.
UGHHHHHHH!